Oy

I should give myself some credit that I stayed on top of the daily posting for a good portion of the year. It hasnt been until very recently that I have come up with a lack of pictures & some skipped days here & there. I figure, its almost the end of the year, it was bound to happen.

I went in to work last night just about an hour before Tiny Love's bedtime. Mom had reported the day had been fine, that she was a happy baby & naps had been good. I bathed her & layed her down...

& the hysterics began. Not just whimpering, but "someone is cutting off my arm" screaming. I had to put Mr.J to bed also, so I did that, Tiny Love screaming the whole time. When I went back to "check" on her (though I knew why she was screaming) Mom was in there & she said I should calm her down a bit. Tiny Love stopped crying the moment she saw me coming towards her crib.....oy. Rip my heart out much?

As of late I am immersed up to my patellas in end of the year schoolwork, prepwork for my final presentation & work for my fieldwork class.

Notice, that I did not say immersed in work at fieldwork. The other day when I was there they had me clean out the refrigerator. I happily did it for them, eager to lend a hand where needed, but deep down whilst scrubbing away I could help but think, "ummm, this is not what Im here for, yo!"

Beyond school huge changes of growth are happening with me personally. I wont bore you with the soggy details of it all, but I will say that it is, once again, amazing to be reassured in God's plan for my life (even without knowing it) & to be able to go to Him exactly how I am without the pressure to change or hide anything from Him is crippling (in a good way).

The Twilight Saga: Eclipse dvd drops a week from yesterday (next Saturday). Who else cant contain their excitment?

I read this yesterday in a magazine & liked it a lot. I felt it was very relevant to my life. If I could print it out onto a T-shirt I would.

"Being happy with your life doesnt mean walking around all day with a smile plastered on your face. It means that at the end of the day you can sit down & have had moments of joy, peace, contentment & passion in your day."

Or something along those lines, I may have paraphrased a bit...my memory isnt quite what it used to be.