Much like Mr.J in this photo, I feel like Ive come to a barrier in my ideal vision for my life & just like I told Mr.J today, I need to find a different idea of a good way to go & be happy about it. So me & God had a talk on the drive home tonight.
Im tired of wasting time out of my life on dreams/ideas/visions that arent working/dont feel right/wont ever happen. Im frustrated in being patient with the unknown plan that is my future that I know is so divinely blessed & planned for me that I should never question it. Im gonna be completely honest here & say; Im tired of not getting what I want even though its so within reach (at least it seems that way). I know, thats a very 5 year old way of acting.
But even though I tell myself I will stop wasting time on these things, I still do it, ugh. Part of me feels that I think on things a lot because God puts it on my heart for a reason & that may be because hes preparing me for something, but I dont want to get run away with thoughts.
Ive prayed for things before & God did exactly as I prayed for, but now what I asked for just doesnt seem enough or sufficient or working anymore. Does that happen to anyone else? I hope so. This really isnt in a selfish way, at least I dont mean it to be at all. I feel things work at one point in time but then not at another, needs change.
Praying for peace, assurance & guidance tonight
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