Dont ask me y'all...these are the things that run through my head as I lay in bed at night. I could cry if I werent so tired.
A is married to B. (They did not meet at the top of a coconut tree.) C & D are married & expecting a baby. E & F are on baby number 2. Wait, did you feel that? Another couple just got engaged.
To be honest, its getting to the point where I want to take a long walk off a short pier. (So I watched Back To The Future the other night & have been dying to use that line.)
Is anybody out there?...hello...anybody...just checking...
This is not to say I dont find joy in others' joy...or that I dont sing along every time Nickleback's song Gotta Be Somebody comes on...& while we're on the topic of songs...really Michael Buble/Frank Sinatra? Im nobody til' somebody loves me? Im pretty sure I dont dig those lyrics.
*Also, for the record, if I have to hear one more person ask me: soooo, have you met anyone/is there anyone you like/are you dating anyone, I am warning y'all. It might get ugly. I just might have to turn away from the dear, blessed individual, scream into a pillow & then turn back to the conversation whilst changing the topic to something more pleasurable, like Twilight or the downfall of nutrition in America. Hear me now & forevermore...when there is something to tell I will tell it.
But I keep hearing God whisper in my ear (okay, so its more like shouting) to enjoy this time in my life because its going to change very soon. I have heard Him tell me this on multiple occasions & just know it is His way of saying, "enjoy these days. Take it all in. Be satisfied. You'll get yours soon enough."...segway...
I was watching "If You Really Knew Me" & a boy was saying how on a day he almost committed suicide there was "something in my head telling me not to" & I was all but shouting at the t.v. that that "something" was God! You know that thing people call a conscience, well y'all, Ive got a secret for ya. Its really God.
Conscience = God.
Yep, so all those people who don't really know if they are walking with God or even if there is a God are dealing with Him on a daily basis. Isnt that fantastic?!
...Ive noticed that in the past few months I am genuinely enjoying things more I have at any other time in my life. Like the way Tiny Love crawls with her bottom up in the air or the Autumn Smelling candles at Bath & Body Works. Im just getting a kick out of things like that in a way I never have before.
So Im meant to soak in these days with other people's children, soaking in this time as a student & wading in the kiddie pool as a baby Christian.
In four years at my 10 year high school reunion my classmates & friends will have 3, 4, 5 y.o.'s,...some will even have 8, 9, 10 y.o.'s. & I...will be me. Hmmmm...I might just need to have me a baby. Ha! No no, I kid.
Is anyone else confused as to where the days go so quickly?
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