January Feel Good Songs
* Catch My Breath- Kelly Clarkson
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* Feel Again- One Republic
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* Home- Phil Phillips
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* Hollyhood- Joey Ruckus ( When I feel like getting my swagger on at the gym)
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Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Sunday, January 27, 2013
New Year, Renewed Spirit
So, if you couldn't tell from the complete lack of posts from July of last year until now, fall/winter just wasn't my season. Being underemployed and searching for a job for months on end all while my savings kept dwindling did not help to put me in the best of moods. On top of that, I was in a car accident just before Christmas, totaling my car and messing up my back. My depression came back for a while and in all honesty Christmas 2012 came and went without so much as a Tis' the Season or a Jingle Bell from me.
All that said, the past month has been good, comparitavely. I have started a new semester, was able to find an affordable and reliable car, my back is doing much better and there are plans afoot :)
Some exciting things to come in 2013:
*Finishing my A.A. degree in the field that I truly feel is where I am meant to be. (It took long enough for me to find it and now that I have I am uplifted)
*Enrolling in an online college to complete my Bachelors degree. (At this point I am looking towards Applied Behavior Studies)
*I will be starting a giveaway contest sometime in the next few months to clear out my apartment of my belongings in anticipation of....
*...My January(ish) 2014 move to Australia!!!
I am so thrilled that this is happening. I have been wishing and dreaming of getting out of my hometown for years, with Australia being in the plans for about 2, and with my schooling (in town) finally coming to a wrap it will be attainable.
My dreams that I have had for so long, that I had anticipated happening far sooner, come at exactly the right time. The journey that has been my 20's (so far) reminds me of a blog post from Big Mama in which she talked about "Walking to your future":
http://thebigmamablog.com/10612/walking-to-the-future/
I was so moved by this post that I emailed Melanie on it and within her response to me she wrote:
All that said, the past month has been good, comparitavely. I have started a new semester, was able to find an affordable and reliable car, my back is doing much better and there are plans afoot :)
Some exciting things to come in 2013:
*Finishing my A.A. degree in the field that I truly feel is where I am meant to be. (It took long enough for me to find it and now that I have I am uplifted)
*Enrolling in an online college to complete my Bachelors degree. (At this point I am looking towards Applied Behavior Studies)
*I will be starting a giveaway contest sometime in the next few months to clear out my apartment of my belongings in anticipation of....
*...My January(ish) 2014 move to Australia!!!
I am so thrilled that this is happening. I have been wishing and dreaming of getting out of my hometown for years, with Australia being in the plans for about 2, and with my schooling (in town) finally coming to a wrap it will be attainable.
My dreams that I have had for so long, that I had anticipated happening far sooner, come at exactly the right time. The journey that has been my 20's (so far) reminds me of a blog post from Big Mama in which she talked about "Walking to your future":
http://thebigmamablog.com/10612/walking-to-the-future/
I was so moved by this post that I emailed Melanie on it and within her response to me she wrote:
Hey Stefani-
I just wanted to encourage you with something I know for sure. God redeems everything. Even our messed up twenties! I know because I made a lot of mistakes. Just keep your eyes on Him and He'll turn your ashes into beauty!
Love,
Melanie
Melanie
This is something I have carried with me for that past year and a half that I go back to for encouragement and now it is a truth that is deeply imbedded in my soul; that I might not be getting where I want to go as fast as I planned or wished, but if I keep my eyes on the right things I will always get to where I am meant to be.
Thursday, July 26, 2012
The In-Between Spot
I am currently in the middle of a job search. One which, ideally, will result in another (new) nanny position, but I am also applying to the school district and other part time openings so as to not close any doors. Just as it has crept up in other areas of my life, the pestering issue of where exactly in time/place/ & space I fit in has shown relevant to my job search this time around in a way it has not before. Let me try to explain whats rumbling around in my head....
See now, I am 26 years old and have been nannying professionally and on a mostly full time basis for the last 8 years of my life. Yes, that is a long time caring for children. And like I was advising a fellow nanny the other day, there is something about this job that seems to just suck the time away. Months turn into a year, one year into two and before you know it you're 26 years old and the mothers you are going to interview with are in your age bracket. This is a job situation I do not want to put myself into. I had no problem working for young new moms when I was 19, but now that they are people I could've been in high school with it just does not sit well with me. Is this stemming out of my own insecurities of my life situation? Perhaps
....perhaps for so many years I thought that those families I am interviewing with would be me. Me at 26, married with a little baby (though never looking for a nanny!) and though my view on life has made a complete change around from the way I used to think I suppose those old dreams are still buried deep in the back of my brain somewhere...or the bottom of my heart.
Another conflict I have run into is that I have so much experience. I've been nannying longer than some of these parents have been parents. In some cases I have more education and experience with what is going on. While I try very hard to maintain professional boundaries with parents it is difficult when, quite honestly, I know more then they do about their child. And parents do not like that.
Ultimately the point of this post is this really. I am a total In-betweener at the moment. Stuck between student and professional. Not young enough anymore to enjoy the carefreeness of being young but not in a position in life to have the true responsibilities that would elicit the title "adult". Stuck between jobs, stuck between majors, stuck between desires of the heart. Stuck, which means you can't move anywhere.
I never, ever thought this is what 26 would be for me. I'm not saying that to suggest that its bad because its not. I have a fairly good life I'd say. Very onion like (if you are a Shrek fan then you will get that) but stable in that I trust myself and my decisions. And I believe that as I sit here writing bits of this story now, in 10 years time, so much more of my story will have unfolded to show me that these days were just the preface.
See now, I am 26 years old and have been nannying professionally and on a mostly full time basis for the last 8 years of my life. Yes, that is a long time caring for children. And like I was advising a fellow nanny the other day, there is something about this job that seems to just suck the time away. Months turn into a year, one year into two and before you know it you're 26 years old and the mothers you are going to interview with are in your age bracket. This is a job situation I do not want to put myself into. I had no problem working for young new moms when I was 19, but now that they are people I could've been in high school with it just does not sit well with me. Is this stemming out of my own insecurities of my life situation? Perhaps
....perhaps for so many years I thought that those families I am interviewing with would be me. Me at 26, married with a little baby (though never looking for a nanny!) and though my view on life has made a complete change around from the way I used to think I suppose those old dreams are still buried deep in the back of my brain somewhere...or the bottom of my heart.
Another conflict I have run into is that I have so much experience. I've been nannying longer than some of these parents have been parents. In some cases I have more education and experience with what is going on. While I try very hard to maintain professional boundaries with parents it is difficult when, quite honestly, I know more then they do about their child. And parents do not like that.
Ultimately the point of this post is this really. I am a total In-betweener at the moment. Stuck between student and professional. Not young enough anymore to enjoy the carefreeness of being young but not in a position in life to have the true responsibilities that would elicit the title "adult". Stuck between jobs, stuck between majors, stuck between desires of the heart. Stuck, which means you can't move anywhere.
I never, ever thought this is what 26 would be for me. I'm not saying that to suggest that its bad because its not. I have a fairly good life I'd say. Very onion like (if you are a Shrek fan then you will get that) but stable in that I trust myself and my decisions. And I believe that as I sit here writing bits of this story now, in 10 years time, so much more of my story will have unfolded to show me that these days were just the preface.
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