I said I was going to try to post once a week or so and it has been a few weeks since I have posted...I guess it is a good thing that I don't have any readers! So today is Leap Year/Leap Day?...It's March 1st 2012 and I thought it would be a cool date to post on, since it only comes around once every four years and all.
Life has been the same, busybusybusybusy with school at night (and my extra online class and studying on the side for my algebra test) work during the day (Gemma is knees-deep in the Terrible 2's...everything people say about it is true) keeping time for friends (being a support for them with their
drama issues stuff going on). I'm also going through a weird sleeping pattern at the moment where I am mentally and physically exhausted all day, I even have to take a little nap sometimes during the day while the girls nap, my body is always fatigued but by the time I come home after class at night and get ready to sleep I lay awake and can't settle. I've always had a hard time falling asleep but now I feel like I'm waking multiple times during the night also. I'd estimate I'm getting about 5 hours a night. All that with little things piled on top like the parking issue in my neighborhood is a nightmare or I am constantly forgetting to pay my bills on time (I bought a calendar to write the dates down in but then I forget to write the dates down) or my window levers keep breaking...ect. Sometimes I feel like I just don't know how to manage life very well yet? (Which, I'm 25, so....time to wake up and get it!!) I very literally had an emotional breakdown a few weeks ago, a panic attack if you will. I just felt like there was no more room in my life for anything else. The Inn is full! So at this point I am attempting to earn a college education while trying to not go crazy at the same time. I'll let you know if this is successful in the end.
But I want to stress that
I am not complaining nor am I unhappy,
Mother.....This is just where I am at right now in my life and these are my feelings that I am feeling and I need to vent them and if it is coming across as dramatic, well then, I suppose I just have a knack for drama.