Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Leap Year

I said I was going to try to post once a week or so and it has been a few weeks since I have posted...I guess it is a good thing that I don't have any readers!  So today is Leap Year/Leap Day?...It's March 1st 2012 and I thought it would be a cool date to post on, since it only comes around once every four years and all.
Life has been the same, busybusybusybusy with school at night (and my extra online class and studying on the side for my algebra test) work during the day (Gemma is knees-deep in the Terrible 2's...everything people say about it is true) keeping time for friends (being a support for them with their drama issues stuff going on).  I'm also going through a weird sleeping pattern at the moment where I am mentally and physically exhausted all day, I even have to take a little nap sometimes during the day while the girls nap, my body is always fatigued but by the time I come home after class at night and get ready to sleep I lay awake and can't settle.  I've always had a hard time falling asleep but now I feel like I'm waking multiple times during the night also.  I'd estimate I'm getting about 5 hours a night.   All that with little things piled on top like the parking issue in my neighborhood is a nightmare or I am constantly forgetting to pay my bills on time (I bought a calendar to write the dates down in but then I forget to write the dates down) or my window levers keep breaking...ect.  Sometimes I feel like I just don't know how to manage life very well yet? (Which, I'm 25, so....time to wake up and get it!!)  I very literally had an emotional breakdown a few weeks ago, a panic attack if you will.  I just felt like there was no more room in my life for anything else.  The Inn is full!  So at this point I am attempting to earn a college education while trying to not go crazy at the same time.  I'll let you know if this is successful in the end.
But I want to stress that I am not complaining nor am I unhappy, Mother.....This is just where I am at right now in my life and these are my feelings that I am feeling and I need to vent them and if it is coming across as dramatic, well then, I suppose I just have a knack for drama.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Push, Jump

I feel like I'm standing at the edge of a cliff and I don't want to be there; it's not because it's a bad place to be but because I'm afraid that once I jump, fall, I won't be in control anymore and I will get hurt.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

This & That

My oven hasn't been working for a while and I don't have a microwave so cooking is a bit of a....situation so Maintenance is putting in a new range tomorrow!  Yip yippee :)
I've been starting to slowly build my professional wardrobe for fieldwork because I was looking in my closet one day and I realized that I had nothing to wear to my professional on site fieldwork and I didn't think the sites would take too well to me coming in wearing my Twilight fan T-shirts and yoga pants.
I've been without my iPod for a few weeks and I'm dying without it!
One week to Arrietty.  One month to Hunger Games.  Countdowns are so on.

Monday, February 6, 2012

Remember

~To the unforgettable nights with the friends you'll always remember~

Flashback

~From June 2010

Fly Away


"Just when the caterpillar thought the world was ending she became a butterfly."

The beautiful thing about loving & living for God & His son are the promises that we have secured to us through His word. There is no need for fear of an end because we know that what is called death here on Earth is only the beginning for us in Heaven. It will be but a transformation, a shedding of the old to begin new.

Friday, February 3, 2012

Flashback

I've been re-reading through some of my old posts from 2010 and I'm a little blown away with myself (If I may toot my own horn).  I didn't realize the person I was then until looking back on it now.  For a while, at least, I'm going to rerun some of my favorite posts, for creative inspiration :)


MONDAY, SEPTEMBER 20, 2010

Tears Of Exhaustion


Well, I did it! Ive returned home from working 5 straight days & let me tell you a little something.

Ive never been this exhausted IN MY LIFE. Y'all, my cuticles are sore (Im not kidding)
GET IT now...all of it
& Yeah...my dreams of 5 children...well...
I guess you never know.
Unless you know.
& Then you do.
So now I get to relax, you know, until I have to go to work in the morning. I find it a bit ironic that I was at work because my boss' were on a vacation & now I need one.

PS-Just for the record, I LoveLove my kids. The fact that I may or may not have began to cry when their parents arrived home this evening bears absolutely no reflection on my love for them.
I was just so happy to see their parents.

So where have I been???


Yes, I took a bit of a blogging break. About a year and some change to be exact. After blogging every day for an entire year I think I shut my computer and went, "shewwww!" Not that I didn't love the blogging but it was time consuming. What I have found though is that it is very important to have a hobby/outlet/daily accountability. 2011 wasn't the smoothest of years and I think that without having my blog last year I fell off the accountability wagon a little bit, amongst other things, so I'm going to make it a habit again to post at least a few times a week.
This year is going to be super busy for me; it is my last year in school, I will be doing my professional fieldwork this fall and graduate in December! I'm still working full time during the day and while doing that and juggling school and a (semi-existent!) social life and my spiritual walk I'm really trying to remember to just live in the moment and take it day by day so I don't get overwhelmed or loose sight of the important things.